[The soft kiss against his hand and Vanitas sweet words are enough on their own to make his heart beat like crazy. He nods slowly, then closes his eyes, letting his partner kiss him, touch him. Vanitas is taking it slow and Aether finds himself gasping and trembling underneath him. His body shifts to make things easier for both of them, his head sinks into the pillows.
Deep breathes, one after another as Vanitas showers him with affection.
Everything feels so good... He can barely hear what his partner is saying.]
I... I'm fine. [He manages to get out of himself.]
[ He quite likes how Aether is reacting, and he leans up to press kisses to Aether's cheeks. He didn't realize he had it in him to be such a sap, but he's learned a lot about himself since marrying the traveler. He continues exploring Aether's body, drawing reactions out of him.
After a while, he pauses and looks at his partner deeply. He's blushing madly but smiling nevertheless. ]
[He looks up at Vanitas and smiles ever so softly. His face is bright red, his eyes clouded with so many different emotions, but love shines through it all.
He reaches up to his lover with a shaky hand, cups his face, brings him close for another kiss. It's tender, adoring, loving. And it takes his breath away completely. Only when he gets that one kiss he finally replies in hushed voice. His breathing hitches.]
[ The kiss is so unbelievably sweet that it makes him dizzy, and he nods, silently promising that he meant it when he said he'd be gentle.
Vanitas is a little anxious, though. He was with Amber but that was easier, because those chocolates they ate threw caution to the wind - here, though, he's fully himself, and it's Aether. This is the person who managed to break past all of his barriers and sneak into his heart. This has to mean something, he wants it to - and Aether can probably tell he's nervous.
He leans in and kisses Aether one more time for good measure. Then, he moves forth, takes it slow and keeps his eyes on his lover. He wants to make sure he doesn't hurt Aether, no matter how good he's feeling. ]
[He can tell that his partner is nervous and so he reaches for Vanitas' hand, gives it a good squeeze and looks at him with a small smile that says everything. "I trust you". "It'll be fine". He wants that reassurance to be felt by his lover.
He's thankful for how gentle Vanitas is with him, but he also wants him to enjoy the moment. Aether squeezes his partner's hand only more like a reminder that this really is fine, that Vanitas is wonderful and he's doing everything right.
He never lets go of that hand. Not when his mind melts, not when he moans in bliss and whispers Vanitas name over and over like in a fever, not when their bodies start moving in the same rhythm, not when he draws his lover closer, to feel him with his entire existence, until neither of them can tell when the other begins and ends.]
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[Even when all is done, when he's trying to catch his breath and his skin feels oversensitive, he still holds Vanitas hand.]
[ He feels the reassurance in the way Aether holds his hand. It helps, even if the beginning is a little awkward, what with them figuring things out, but the entirety of the experience is emotionally charged. He feels so connected to his partner, so vulnerable and trusting at the same time. Vanitas can't keep his hands or lips off of him and he loses himself in how good Aether makes him feel.
When everything finishes, he squeezes Arther's hand, and rolls over to lay down at his side. His free arm pulls him as close as possible. ]
[He's easily pulled close, wrapping his own arms around Vanitas like he's about to hold him for the rest of his life. He buries his head into his lover's warmth and closes his eyes.]
I'm here. [He murmurs.] I love you. I always want to be with you.
[Nothing else truly matters in this single moment.]
[ Vanitas doesn't believe in eternity and he most certainly has no interest in living that long, either. That being said, if eternity could look and feel like this, he wouldn't mind so much. He wouldn't mind spending the rest of his days in Aether's arms like this, soaking in his warmth and tender affection.
He nuzzles the top of Aether's hair and also decides to close his eyes. ]
Then you should. [ Stay here, he means. Be with him. He doesn't know what he'd do if Aether left his life. ] I love you, too.
[ Those words never came easily for him and it took some time for him to get used to saying them. He doesn't say them often, but he's always believed that his lover knows how he feels without words. This time, though, it's easy to say it.
Gently, he tucks some hair behind the traveler's ear, and his voice turns bashful. ]
[ Everything, huh? Never did he think he'd ever be someone's everything, but if that's what he is to Aether, he can't say he minds. The part of him that's been wanting something solid in his life is going to cling to what Aether says, because he didn't think he'd ever be capable of being so caring, so sweet and considerate of someone else ever again.
Here he is, though. Married (?!), comfortable (?!?!), and above all else, happy. And yet, he's terrified, because he doesn't want to hurt Aether. He doesn't want to bog him down with his comparatively short lifespan, but that's something that he's sure they'd both considered before they decided to tie the knot. If he can spend the rest of his life being with the traveler, he'll be greedy and take that chance. He's finally allowing himself to feel happiness.
Strange, that. ]
I... [ A beat. He holds onto Aether a little tighter. ] That's you. Not me.
[ Sadly, old self-loathing habits die hard, still. ]
You could have picked anyone else back there, but you chose me. [ And he just hopes Aether won't regret that decision down the line. ] I'm the one who should be grateful.
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Deep breathes, one after another as Vanitas showers him with affection.
Everything feels so good... He can barely hear what his partner is saying.]
I... I'm fine. [He manages to get out of himself.]
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After a while, he pauses and looks at his partner deeply. He's blushing madly but smiling nevertheless. ]
...Ready?
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He reaches up to his lover with a shaky hand, cups his face, brings him close for another kiss. It's tender, adoring, loving. And it takes his breath away completely. Only when he gets that one kiss he finally replies in hushed voice. His breathing hitches.]
I'm ready.
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Vanitas is a little anxious, though. He was with Amber but that was easier, because those chocolates they ate threw caution to the wind - here, though, he's fully himself, and it's Aether. This is the person who managed to break past all of his barriers and sneak into his heart. This has to mean something, he wants it to - and Aether can probably tell he's nervous.
He leans in and kisses Aether one more time for good measure. Then, he moves forth, takes it slow and keeps his eyes on his lover. He wants to make sure he doesn't hurt Aether, no matter how good he's feeling. ]
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He's thankful for how gentle Vanitas is with him, but he also wants him to enjoy the moment. Aether squeezes his partner's hand only more like a reminder that this really is fine, that Vanitas is wonderful and he's doing everything right.
He never lets go of that hand. Not when his mind melts, not when he moans in bliss and whispers Vanitas name over and over like in a fever, not when their bodies start moving in the same rhythm, not when he draws his lover closer, to feel him with his entire existence, until neither of them can tell when the other begins and ends.]
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[Even when all is done, when he's trying to catch his breath and his skin feels oversensitive, he still holds Vanitas hand.]
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When everything finishes, he squeezes Arther's hand, and rolls over to lay down at his side. His free arm pulls him as close as possible. ]
Aether...
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I'm here. [He murmurs.] I love you. I always want to be with you.
[Nothing else truly matters in this single moment.]
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He nuzzles the top of Aether's hair and also decides to close his eyes. ]
Then you should. [ Stay here, he means. Be with him. He doesn't know what he'd do if Aether left his life. ] I love you, too.
[ Those words never came easily for him and it took some time for him to get used to saying them. He doesn't say them often, but he's always believed that his lover knows how he feels without words. This time, though, it's easy to say it.
Gently, he tucks some hair behind the traveler's ear, and his voice turns bashful. ]
...You're beautiful.
I didn't even notice xD
[His hair is tucked away and Aether looks at Vanitas with curiosity. His face is still red, but it burns bright when the other calls him "beautiful".]
You're beautiful, too. [He says softly, as if trying to reflect the compliment to his companion.] You're wonderful. You're... everything to me.
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[ Everything, huh? Never did he think he'd ever be someone's everything, but if that's what he is to Aether, he can't say he minds. The part of him that's been wanting something solid in his life is going to cling to what Aether says, because he didn't think he'd ever be capable of being so caring, so sweet and considerate of someone else ever again.
Here he is, though. Married (?!), comfortable (?!?!), and above all else, happy. And yet, he's terrified, because he doesn't want to hurt Aether. He doesn't want to bog him down with his comparatively short lifespan, but that's something that he's sure they'd both considered before they decided to tie the knot. If he can spend the rest of his life being with the traveler, he'll be greedy and take that chance. He's finally allowing himself to feel happiness.
Strange, that. ]
I... [ A beat. He holds onto Aether a little tighter. ] That's you. Not me.
[ Sadly, old self-loathing habits die hard, still. ]
You could have picked anyone else back there, but you chose me. [ And he just hopes Aether won't regret that decision down the line. ] I'm the one who should be grateful.